Happy 690th entry halfalive!
How I wish Amyraee could reach this far.

Evening readers, it's Thursday and it felt like it's Friday. Went to school as usual. Wake up call at 6 and I answered the phone. Accidentally hang up ( still don't know who hang up ), and went back to sleep. Woke up close 6.35am and rushed all the way.

I gave the letter I wrote to Miss Lee. I know I owe her and explanation and I gave her one full page of my pink foolscap. Okay, not mine. My sister's. I took me less than 10 minutes to write the whole page because I already know what to say in mind. Wah, see I'm prepared! haha. So I gave her and off to dry my hair in the toilet -.-

PE teachers was being super unreasonable this morning. Almost everybody from the 4 Academic classes were pissed. I mean come on pe hunks ( NOT ), you guys went off for meeting and NOBODY gave us the insruction to stay for Mass run or go back to class. And since last week there wasn't any mass run, we thought it's the same for today. Then you guys came to class and gathered us at the Parade Square, questioning us and telling us you not in a good mood. I mean, eh come on ah teachers. The whole school went up to their respective classes. At least we went up to our classes, not anywhere else to the canteen or whatsoever.

Totally unreasonable and pathetic. I hate it.
Don't say we're sec 4 and we can't think. At least we did the decent thing to go back to class and sit down. Don't blame us fully. Blame yourself for not giving instructions before you went off for the stupid meeting. Ha, take that.

English was the best because we went to the library right after Mass Run. Awesome. I've completed my layout and I'm pretty amazed myself. I thought I'm gonna give up today and absent myself tomorrow since tomorrow's the due date. Alhamdulillah, at least something is up.

RAG to school tomorrow to clean the tables we're using which was vandalised. Not by me.

&
I VANT MY CALUCATOR! * banging the table *
- insert accent. ehem eh Alyssha eh! ahahhahaha
Funny moments in class. I loikkeee kaau.

I love school today!

Despite feeling fatigue due to the strong medicine I took yesterday night, more than required.
As I was saying, I love school today! Woke up late but managed to get to school on time. Thanks to bi for the wake up call but rejected! haha. Bumped into Hariz and walked to school with him. Crapped alot, I like! Hide in the toilet for awhile. Someone forgotten to bring tie today, ehem.

So lesson as per normal. Chemistry was great because it's a full class, without the intensive students. Did my work and I was quite focus. Amazing! English was all about chit chatting cause the Laptop cable was a bitchy. Managed to answer a few questions during SS and Maths was purely graphs! Recess. I feel that I've spent my first half of the day in school wisely. ehems.

Art was a total whore today. I was fucked up. Fed up. Fired up. Pissed off. Fucked off. Name it all. Seriously. The fan pissed me off too. My pencil did not work with me. So does my tracing paper and my brain. UGH, I erased and erased and erased my work and ended up accomplishing NOTHING for the bloody three periods. How can I not get fucked up? You tell me. Everything seemed wrong after art. Hariz pulled my bag while I was packing up, I stared at him. I feel like bashing Zhi Wei's face. I dont know what's up with me.

Skipped the so-so assembly talk.

Went for lunch and while walking home, Faz texted me. So I went to her place and off to Mac to chillax. Left close to 6pm. Home.

So as you can see, today is a pretty much a fucked up day for me. Pardon me for the attitude.
bye

Good Afternoon.

Dragged myself out of the bed in the morning for Religious Class. No mood to attend but there's exams today and yeah, I don't want to go back there to sit for it in the staff room during the holidays. School's classes during June Holidays are already a burden. I was early today because two weeks ago Uztad already lectured me in front of the class together with Amalina. Skipped last week. So I had my oral today which went awesomely bad.

I did not study for the papers and yeah, I think I did well for a student who did not study. Well the exam wasn't that serious at all. Despite the warning, the whole class were discussing & sharing answers. So why take this seriously when the teachers too wasn't that serious? So the clowns and I laughed out loud and stuff. Uztad then just played along. I like today. Only.

Class ended and walked to the bus stop with Amalina. Home sweet home. I must say that the weather suck big time. The bus ride made things worst. You know how easily I get nausea for sitting at the back of the bus? Yeah, the bus was packed and I had no choice but to sit at the back, IN BETWEEN A MATREP AND A CHINESE MAN. Okay, very uncomfortable. I think they think that I'm mad cause I was all sick and pukey. Sorry. So a man alighted and I quickly take the seat in front. The aircon suck too. Ah, benci.

So I reached home.
Feeling extremely bored. Should be working on my prep board already. Ah, laziness ate me up. Okay that sentence sound soooo yesterday.

Don't think I'm attending school tomorrow. But I want to try the new machine to take the attendance. Jakun, I know. Shut up! Already have my anti-bacteria wipes & sanitizer in my bag! Okay. I have my own reasons not to turn up to school. Okay that sentence will make Alyssha scream her heads off because she know the exact reason why I don't wanna turn up. HAHAHAHAHA.

Hey.

A private blog created!
Oh finally.

Was out the whole day. Imagine how tired I am right now. Will be having exams tomorrow and only god know how not prepared I am. NOT PREPARED AT ALL.

Ohwell.

I enjoyed today, alot!

GOODNIGHT LOVE.

Birah.
HAHAHAHA.

happy saturday, hopefully.

Goodnight to all of you

KRIS ALLEN WON.
Got to know from my classmate yesterday morning. I was having physics, so I was shouting into my own bag. I bet my teacher thought I was insane. Who wouldn't be? IT'S KRIS ALLEN. A now, Leanna told me his married. So that girl that he hugged, cried on her shoulders and the stupid camera man kept on zooming in at that girl is the wife. OUCH manymany. seriously.

Adam's great too.
But totally gay.

Okay. Slept in the afternoon and woke up to catch the result show although I already knew the results. Enjoyed the whole show yesterday putting aside the flu. So took the medicine more then required. BAM, I could hardly wake up this morning. So yeah, pulled myself out of the bed. Already late for school. So I marathon to school and yeah, wasn't late. PE was great. Took height and weight ( ain't gonna mention it here! ). Then played Frisbee. My group won and I scored a goal. Didn't run at all. The guys did the most. Free drinks next week! (:

Was a little grumpy today. Never mind.

English was great because I was focus! Did my work in the library. Maths was great too. I mean, those people who hates Pythagoras theorem are just plain stupid. Okay I'm just being so kurang ajar. But really, I like that topic real much, that's why I scored full marks for that topic in my midyear paper. ONLY THAT TOPIC, EHEMs. okay shut up.

so, CAUSEWAY POINT'S ON FIRE.
Thanked god I left that place early.

So, as I was emo-ing the journey home, decided to put down my stuff and go to vista to get some stuff. Called up Faz and yeah, she accompanied me. Thanks eh! (:

Miss Ong is leaving us.
Mr Cheng is leaving us. :(

CRUEL WORLD.
serious shit sak. both of my favourite teachers are leaving me.
taknak aku pass my combined science ckp je ahhhh.


*
ee girl, desperado sia you.
I feel dirty being close to you before.
hahaha. sorry ah.

KRIS ALLEN IS THE BEST LOR.

His version of the last song that Kara wrote was so much better than Adam's version. There was too much screaming from that gay. I don't want Adam to win although he got superb vocals. David Archuleta didn't win. I don't want Kris to be like DA! Heart pain many many siaaa.

Binget. serious. sumpah. I don't lie. tak bedek. Betul. serious aku cakap.

Okay.

Skipped school today due to pure laziness & the headache. Texted Alyssha baby, asking for permission to skip school. Was expecting some vulgarities and her being manipulative. No reply. So decided to go back to sleep since it's already late for school. Woke up at around 6.40am. So why rush to school and get punishment? STAY IN BED! I woke up at around 11 plus. Woke up and wanted to go to school. Weird, I know. It's just that I've got nothing to do at home. Wanted to meet bbys but got too hooked up with Devil Wears Prada. So I stayed in. Watched that movie countless of times already.

Was about to dial Khalis and I realised the line's out. Ah. So practically I spend my evening munching on potato chips and banana fritters? I don't know. Jemput jemput la senang.

A mistake to skip school today. Should have turned up today and skip tomorrow instead. Who the hell wants to do mass run? You tell me. Ah, no choice. I hate school now. I hope teachers will give some face and close both eyes when they see me sleeping. And I got to know Mr Cheng shared stories about him to the class AND IM NOT THERE. YOU KNOW HOW MAD I AM AT MYSELF RIGHT NOW? VERYVERYVERYEXTREMEMLYSERIOUSLY MAD. amek kau.
alaaaaaaaaaaaaaah. stupid sia Irah.

Fiah Bby is helping me to keep my money. Since I realised that I'm no good in saving my own money, so I have my trust on Fiah to save keep it for something I wanna get in few weeks time. Hoping that no one buy it because if someone purchase it, I'll kill myself. heh.

OKAY.

Should have met my brother instead. ~

Evening earthlings.

I woke up this morning, played a song. KAY FAKE AH. That's a line from one of Miley's song. So, I woke up this morning, start brushing my hair and wondered if I should go to school today. I was so tired and sleepy and yeah, almost when back under my blanket. I know it's weird to brush my hair right after I stood up. Was doing some thinking. Looked at the time and realised, NO TIME TO THINK! Walked to the toilet and yeah, I went to school alone as Alyssha took the straight bus to school today.

Today was a pure laziness day, I tell you. Even Miss Lai said she's very tired and lazy today. Half of the class went for Mother Tongue intensive and yeah, it seem so peaceful. Not trying to imply anything but I feel better sometimes, being in a class where there isn't much student. That's why I like to separate class during lessons *smiles* But today's different. I was all sleepy since the first period.

Had a chat with Mr Isham and I laughed my ass off after the chat.

I couldn't concentrate during Physics. Oh I know and you know why. Seriously, I wish I could focus maaan. Next, art. Double sleepyness. Ms Lai talked to me. She mentioned about having faith in me and stuff. I know you can do it and all. Motivated, for that 5 minutes only. After she walked off, I tried to do something on my paper and boom, my head fall onto the table. Lazy. She came to me again and said I need to buck up. Okay, I get it. (: thanks teacher, ily.

Miss Ong is leaving us, half of the class. I don't want her to but it's not a choice. HAHA. I am so gonna attend her coaches during the June holidays. Man, I think she's the best. seriously.

Then, Mother Tongue. Mrs Shirley Choo, I think, came in and gave up maths multiple choice. I chuckled for awhile. It's been years since I last saw Maths Multiple choice questions. I slept and she woke me up. Already stuck at the first question. Could not take it, I went to sleep until Miss Lee's lesson. She shouted my name and Alyssha's and we woke up. Not even a minute passed, I went to sleep. Countless of times Miss Lee shouted my name. God, I need more sleep. Really.
Was shocked and jerk up when she shouted, headache.

It seems like it took forever for school to end today. Happy when the bell goes off.
Went out with my babies and went over to my aunt's place. Fetched Apin and off to Mac.
Went home and got to know brother wanted to take me out to eat. AH, stupid me.

Chatted with Luthfi earlier on about the exchange we hosted on the 28th February and the girlfriend boyfriend thing. Talked about how shitty our results are and all. Just gonna miss walking home with him, sometimes with the rest of the people namely Harith and Baoyan. Ah, it's never gonna happen again cause all of them will be graduating this year. Hopefully, another year for me. Fickle minded. I don't know if I wanna stay on and take O's. It's scary and I'm sure all the secondary four N's agree with me.

I hate separations.
Okay, sounds so mushy and all.


Hari ini hari malas nak mampos.
sumpah.

What are you wondering about right now ?
- sleep?

What do you think about your love life right now ?
- Still at the first stage baby.

The song you're hearing now makes you think of someone ?
- Adam Sandler- I wanna grow old with you. YEAH.

What's the best line from that song?
- "I wanna make you smile, whenever you're sad. " " All I wanna do is grow old with you. "
" I'll get you your medicine when your tummy aches. "
I know this asked for one line but I like it all uh.

Waiting for someone to call ?
- Don't think I wanna take calls tonight, too tired.

Ever perform on the stage ?
- Many times. haha

What's your current mood ?
- Extremely sleepy.

Do you fall for guys easily ?
- Not really? hahah, idk la.

How many children do you want to have?
- 4. A boy. Girl twin and another boy.

Are you a fighter?
- ABODENS.

Do you think your boyfriend/girlfriend likes to flirt ?
- No. ( see, i trust you hor! )

Ever run away from home ?
- Nope.

Ever control your tears ?
- Oh many times! But failed.

Prefer eating / drinking ?
- This is hard. I love both.

Think back to yesterday, what were you doing last night?
- On the phone with dearest & then sleeping!

Last movie you watched?
- Definitely Maybe.
( Yeah, pretty old and long. A little bit of phobia to watch movies now. ehem )

Okay, I'm sleepy. I'm turning in.

Hope this will be a successful attempt.
Bismillah.

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okay, I'm already tired. I don't know how 'they' can type the whole entry like that. I think my caps lock button got stuck already. Never mind. As I've predicted, today is infact a Mundane Monday. Was too lazy to fight for the toilet. Showered slowly and was pretty late. Managed to walk fast and entered school on time.

How awesome? I scored 4 out of 20 for my Social Studies. I wrote alot and to me, there's link to the question and sources okay. I don't know why I only got marks for L2. I got mad for awhile and yeah, returned the paper with no hesitation. So no point passing my Geography now, SS pulled me down down down. Never the mind.

Mother Tongue was the best. Hariz drank up all my drink and ate my last sweet. Thanked god I was in a good mood if not.. Okay, what the hell am I talking about?

I'm high I'm drunk.
HAHAHAHAHHAHA.

Saturday eh?

I wanna be the longest. And the safest.
inshallah.

Everybody left me alone. Everyone went offline.
And I had to hang up because my sister told me to.
Well he need to hang up soon anyway.

Yesterday's call was hilarious.
You slept. power kan?

Okay.
I woke up in the morning with cramps.
Went outside with my blanket and smelly pillow and slept outside.
Called dad saying I don't wanna go for class and yeah, settled.
Called up Amalina setan and yeah, she went for class.
Ah, double test for me next week. I hate Sundays.

As I was saying, had my breakfast with my cousin afterwards. Around 12, I fell asleep on the couch. Warm, I went down and slept on the floor. Mother came home and scolded me for being such a lazy person. Oh, nothing you can do about it, mama. So, woke up and I can't find good food for my grumbling tummy! Aunt called me and asked me to come over we ' sambal kicap ' for her mee soto. WOW, I said. So, called khalis for awhile before washing up & walk to my aunt's place. There, I had my dinner and helped my cousin with his Math, played with baby Apin. Dad called and met up with him at Vista. Walked home.

Mundane Monday, I can foresee.
I don't wish to attend school tomorrow. It's gonna be draggy, like normal days. Wait, since it's normal, I should be use to it already. But no, I'm not. Lessons after lessons, DOUBLE PERIOD SUCKS. And shucks, my value died so my cell's gonna be all silent now. I knew I should control my sms madness. Irah..irah.

Told dad about it and he didn't scold. Usual dad will say things like ' although exams are over, still need to go! sure got new things! '. But my dad said ' eh, attendance! ' -.- Abahh abah.

I need to practice sleeping at 10pm already. I mean, I used to do that and I'll be so fresh in class and all ready to study and ace. But now, irregular sleeping schedule. Sometimes, I don't even sleep! This isn't healthy and yet I'm still doing it.

I need to get some candies for school later on.
Okay, gonna force myself to sleep right now.

BYEBYE BABY PANTAT AND CHOMBI.
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.
inside joke, mofos.

Labels: already am.

POC 2009 WAS AWESOME.
Thank you members for your hard work you've put in for this event. Memorable indeed. When you guys performed When You Believe, I was already holding back my tears. That song just brought back those memories, aesthetic night. I really did feeeeel you guys. And Snowflower by the secondary ones, is amazing. That, made me cry. The saxophone guys told me not to. KORG HATI KERAS AH! * hitting Rahmad's chest *

Section lunch.
I know it might not be the last time I'm sitting down with my juniors as a section but it will be the last with my sec four members. Ah, I laughed alot with Caroline and I know, I missed these moments with her, always missed. As i watched them eat, ( not for making them feel uncomfortable ) I look at them closely. Oh how much I missed my members. I wondered awhile. How are they? How's sectionals and all. Definitely miss those laughing moments with them before going on to serious matters.

You guys thanked me for teaching and guiding and I thank you now, for being my wonderful juniors. The letters you all gave me and the others, are just amazing. Embarrassing enough to cry in front of the band but I can't hold back my tears any longer. The speech really touched my heart and boom, i broke down ( Rahmad don't laugh la ). I read all of it and I'm touched. ( putting aside the weird hand writings and such ) Thank you all. And it's weird that one of you said ' I'll miss your sweet voice and prominent smile ' HAHAHAH. seriously? Don't miss my laughters too much okay? AH, I can't bare to leave band. :'(

Danial, your big solo was the best. Melted when you played.
Very very very well played. seriously. Better than the one we heard over at Peixin's concert!
serioussssssssssss.

I love you all, I really do.
nak cry man.

Shawal just paid me $1.50 for the Ice Kachang I paid for him 2 years back. HILARIOUS.


*******.
Red light.
Warning, moodswings.
mati mati, tentu mati.

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Mom was sleeping in my brother's room earlier on at around 8pm. I went inside to get my book and as I was searching for it, I heard a soft voice whispering, calling out my nick name, ' yayaa '.
I turned around and nothing, only mom sleeping. Looked to my left and the window was wide open. Gathered all my courage and close the window. Ah, second time I'm disturbed in his room. The first was at around 7pm some week ago. Just hung up and was still wearing my headphone, happily singing but no song playing. I stopped because I heard the ' thing ', was singing after me. Awesome or what?

Hais. And I'm a state whereby the thing can easily disturb me. Ah, scary.

& he's not home yet. tsk.

So eager to open up a private blog. Real soon. Prolly right after this entry because there's nothing much for me to do other than worry for tomorrow's pop and Sunday's test which I don't have a single book. Awesome!

School's fine. Results look good, NOT. Don't wish to elaborate on it.
PE was all about fun. First period was warm up and chillax time in the hall. Second period was when Alyssha and I started to laugh and just squat by the 'goal post'? Yeah. Chinese guys were so god damn funny while playing floor ball. Alyssha should know eh. We laughed more than we played. Okay, we didn't perspire at all. Went back to class all dry while the rest were all drenched in the own sweat. yuck.

Was out with my bbys and Alyssha met Salikin again. Finally he's able to speak after awhile eh? Went to her place and wait for the girls to get ready. I washed up at the last minute. Sorry. Went out and had lunch over at causeway where I bumped into Azal and Crystal. Man Crys is hot! Didn't smile at Azal because he seems to be arrogant but then in MSN, he said I was the one who didn't approach him first. Okaaaaaaaaaaay~

Quick lunch. Alyssha was surprisingly fast! haha.
Walked around and went to the library where we laughed, laughed and laughed.
I think we laughed the most today. Mostly laughed about those stupid random stuff. Hilarious.
I love my bbys so much many many byk ! okay wth?
Did some stuff and went back home close to 6pm.

I've been spending my time watching videos and videos and videos of all my favourite idols. Seung ri, Kyu Han, Lee Dong Wook, Wondergirls, KRIS ALLEN & Fauzie Laily. I kept on smiling to myself every time I see them dancing or singing. Even pictures of them posing. I don't know why. Adam lambert, we are so over. I didn't know you're gay. But keep up with the vocals dude.

takmo step cute laaa.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

HELLO BEAUTIFUL.

I WOKE UP WITH A BAD HEADACHE. 17HOURS OF SLEEP.
I feel so refresh and ready to stay alive kicking. okay what the hell? So not true.
I woke up at around 4am because I had enough of sleep and my head was already spinning.
But no choice, sang lullaby and got back to sleep. Fake ah. Just went back to sleep.

Woke up at around 10am although I need to lie down. My neck hurts and my head was in pain. Got up and went to the living room to lie down, again. Laze around till aunt aini came and was force to shower by all humans at home. UGH. Had breakfast and use the laptop for awhile and showered in the afternoon. Slack till late afternoon and decided to make my way to causeway point with Fazlina! Asked bbys but they wasn't free. Met her and got home at around 8pm.

Had my dinner and double chocolate. Yes, I'm so gonna suffer during mass run tomorrow. And yeah, since we're on that, I don't feel like going to school. Firstly, I'm already used on going home early ( which means going cwp to have breakfast ) after papers so I can't stand staying in school until afternoon already. Secondly, how can it get worse? First period, Mass run. Suck. Thirdly, teachers will sure go through the papers which I don't wish to look at. How? Bbys asked me to come to school. I'm still thinking about it eh krgs..

Like I told Faz earlier on, I don't feel like coming to school anymore. Ah, N levels. ugh.

It's Marking Day today. And I think the teachers need more time to mark. One day isn't enough right teachers? We'll like it too! (: Uh, to hell with it.

FIAH BBY, please do take care of yourself okay? I may sound like I don't care but seriously, I do care all these while. It's only that I repeat everything cause yeah, it's the same thing. Not much words left to speak about that guy. I know there's tons out there okay. I'm here. Alyssha's here. Your other babygirls are also here. Not that you can turn lesbian with us but yeah, we're here for you. Cheer up okay hunneh? (:

and Nana bestie love, don't shift.
It's hard to meet you now, it'll be harder when you're at the west or east.
Hunneh, please? haha. alaaaaaaaaah.
how could you maaan.

Everyone's leaving me sia, one by one.
Cruel world indeed.

it's coming.

It's close to 4am and I'm not sleeping.



I just don't feel tired, I don't know why. I wish there's someone I could talk to right now. Okay, I'm just being so spoilt cause I just got off the phone with khalis at 1am. Someone's sleepy already. Benci. Chatted with FiahBby and she went offline later. Nothing to do? Youtube!

Was feeling low low low since just now so I thought I should watch something where I can let it all out so I chose Raise Your Voice. A very very nice movie to the extent that you can cry while watching in. Well I cried just now after watching in for * doing some counting * countless of times. It's a very good show so please watch. lol. The song Someone's watching over me is well written and yeah, I like it alot. Plus, Hillary Duff is cute & Oliver James, delicious. Wow.

Currently listening to Miley's Goodbye & Ina's Suddenly. Kinda suit the whole feeling in the room ya know. It's close to 4am, listening to slow song and stuff. Pretty nice. Putting aside how bad I'm gonna do my paper later on. Yeah.

Planning to go to school early. Should I sleeep? And I'm still not sure whether to follow bbys or not to later on. Hmms, both scolded for not wanting to tag along. I lonely luh sygs..



OH fish, school shoes still not ready! Ah, gotta get ready later. Maybe now, maybe, I'm gonna read through my Physics notes. God's willing.



***************

Remember you said to call you if there's anything? Can I now?
Kay no, I won't disturb uhs.

Imy. Imysm.
Seriously I do.
:(



Goodnight love.



Oh cheers for the 674th entry!


Needa something to cheer you up? Go ahead and read my old old old entry.
Happiness guaranteed -.- Enjoy.









The past is back, it hurts.

And if he touches you and you feel your skin is burning.
Kisses you and you feel your stomach turning,
he's the one, he is the one.
- Oh I just love that part of the song, eh Alyssha eh? (:

I'm currently still trying to fit in as many information I can from my chemistry textbook, ten year series, notes and all. Still trying to. Why is it so hard to recall all those things Miss Ong have taught me? Maaaan, I feel that those not compulsory extra classes I've attended for Chemistry, missing band practices are all a waste. I've forgotten almost everything. And damn you Irah for forgetting to bring home your Chemistry notebook which have like EVERYTHING INSIDE.

Baik Irah! -.-

Still haven't touch my Physics. I specially adore both of my science teachers. And it feels like shit to know that I'm gonna flunk their papers tomorrow. I did well for Chemistry Common Test and yeah, complacent ah now. Pig. Physics, I have got to focus in class man. Change teacher ah! He is good! but I just can't focus when he's teaching. Mampos.

I can foresee that I don't need to wait for my parents or the teachers to stab me when I receive my results because my sciences will. I can predict how anxious I'm gonna feel when I'm doing my paper tomorrow. Ah, I ought to be revising now instead of blogging. Never mind.

Yesterday's BBQ to celebrate Mothers Day was alright. Got home after class and got ready to meet my cousin at Causeway to get some stuff for the bbq later on that day. Wasn't the best because it started late and alot of us came late and was busy wrapping the last minute gifts and last minutes cake and all. Irritating. But I must thank the ibus ibus for preparing the food that I've eaten. The chicken, the prawns, crab sticks, squids and the meals! Carrot cake, potato salad, Mee Siam and more ah. I love to eat. And I realised something, after every time I sat and eat, I will go to the mat and lie down. PEMALAS. Star gaze alone although there wasn't much stars.

The cake was the best thing.

Went up to my place first. Was lazy to help clean up the area. Washed up and went to bed. Woke up 5 in the morning and replied a text message although I can do it in the morning -.-. Woken up by Apin's greetings strong and loud at around 8am. Chit chat for awhile and went back to sleep till 3pm. WOW, I know. Slack in the afternoon.

Fiah Bby called a few times to ask me out ( LOL ) but I was busy sleeping. Sorry ah love.

Chemistry and Physics, be easy tomorrow okay?
I love you. WTH.


I'll try to mug ahhhhhh.

Yes, I'm extremely bored.
eeennjoyyyss.

The last person you kissed needs you at 3 AM, would you go?
- Obviously no. I rather sleep and deal with that person in the morning.

Have you ever punched a wall, door, etc?
- No. I aim people's stomach.

Honestly, if you could go back 1 month and change something would you?
- Things are all good then & now.

Do you believe in forever?
- Not really.

What was the first thing you thought when you woke up?
- whaaaaaaaat time now?

Do you think you can last in a relationship for 3 months or more?
- If I can wait for someone for more than a year back then, I'm sure relationship can last longer.

What are you thinking about right now?
- When the hell am I going to take a bath? it's 6 now!

Do you get mad easily?
- I'm known for that. But I don't get mad easily! weird..

Are you mad now?
- No. There's no reason for me to get mad now. *smiles*

Do you have strange dreams?
- Which dreams ain't strange? You tell me.

Do you have a reason to smile right now?
- of couuuuuuuuurse! *smileeeees*

Plans for Saturday?
- Today is Saturday.

If you just drank 15 beers, what would you be doing?
- doing drunken stuff? No uh, I won't even have a sip of that filthy thing.

When did you last throw up?
- Years ago?

When is the next time you will kiss someone?
- When the time I want to ahhh. stupid sia.

Have you ever been to a wedding?
- Obviously? Again, stupid sia.

Anything you would change about your life right now?
- Nothing much.

What were you doing 2:02 am this morning?
- Was I asleep then? Idk, I think I was trying to sleep uh.

Who was the first person you talked to today?
- Muhd Razif Bin Sariff. Also known as my brother.

Piercings?
- Ears only.

Is there a big difference between "i love you" and "luv ya?"
- BIG DIFFERENCE BABY. *hints*

Have you ever had a pet fish?
- yesyes.

Something you hate more than anything?
- Clowns.

Where have you lived throughout your life?
- Yishun and woodlands.

When was the last time you saw your dad?
- Yesterday night? around 1am.

Think back to March, were you in a relationship?
- No.

What are you listening to?
- Ina- Suddenly.

Who are your last two texts from?
- Khalis and let me see, Khalis (:

Who's hoodie did you wear last?
- The typical ones? NONE.

Have you ever been treated badly?
- Yeah, if not, why I had sucha bad past?
ameeek kau!.

What are you doing tonight?
- Eat & sleep.

Could you go out in public, looking like you do now?
- To the mini mart just downstairs is embarrassing enough.

How often do you hold back what you want to say?
- Very often, lately.

Would you move to another state or country to be with the one you love?
- I'm only fifteen going on Sixteen, what's love sia? chey. Depends.

Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
- Yeah. Was convinced by Alyssha Bby. (:

Which one of your friends do you think would make the best doctor?
- HAHA HAHA HAHA. NONE. I remembered coughing like mad till I can't breathe and my bbys did nothing but continue talking to each other. -.-

Are you afraid of falling in love?
- Pretty much.

Is there someone who pops into your mind at random times?
- When I randomly think of random stuff uh.

Is there another person that you'll always have feelings for?
- Must I?

What's the last thing you laughed really hard over?
- Some stuff he said.

What are you doing today?
- Slack. Really, slack.

What is more important, happiness or trust?
- Trust. Without trust, no happiness. CHEY MACIAM FHM.

Were you happy when you woke up today?
- No, because there's no text message!

4th text in your inbox and from who?
-" I am sooo stressed. Let's talk about something. When you were a baby, does your parents take a nude shot of you? " - Khalis. huahuha. I'm dead.

Ever been called a bitch?
- Yeah. hehhaha!

Would you go in public looking like you do right now?
- Maciam pernah dgr sia this question. No uh, crazy uh.

Have you ever kissed anybody whose name started with S, A, or M?
- Samuel, Adrian & Martin. All three. FAKE SIA.

Are you starting to realize anything?
- That someone's getting all serious already.

One thing you're not looking forward to?
- Midyears results & prep works.

Does your best friend have a boyfriend/​​​girlfriend?​
- I have bestfriends. Yeah, I guess.

Last time you re-did your profile?
- Weeks ago.

Why did you cry the last time you did?
- Argued with M_ _.

Who do you miss?
- My bbys and ttm.

Something you do when you are mad?
- Talk real fast, non-stop. serious.

Who will you be with Saturday night?
- Probably alone.

When did you last talk to your number one?
- Last night.

Any plans next weekend?
- Hopefully.

Did you have a good day?
- Not yet.

Is it hard for you to get over someone?
- Real hard but got over someone already. AWESOME.

Have you done anything embarrassing lately?
- No uh.

What is something you disliked about today?
- Bbys are not online! Khalis isn't online! Everyone's leaving me.
Kay drama starts uh. It's holiday and svc's down, nothing to watch!

What are your plans for this summer?
- Just like last years.

Where was your default picture taken?
- Home.

Did you date anyone last summer?
- Was busy at Perth. Yeah, perth hot guys. weink.

What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
- Doing this thing uhh.

Whose car were you in last?
- Family's I guess.

What color shirt are you wearing?
- Green.

How long is your hair?
- Not long enough. ugh.

Now,what are you listening to?
- Katy Perry's Thinking of you.

Last time you went swimming in a pool?
- Months ago.

Does anyone know your friendster password?
- Yeah, a couple of them.

Are you texting right now?
- Yes of course.

Who are you texting with?
- Khalis.

Are you a jealous person?
- Occasionally. huaha.

What is the last text message you sent and to who?
- " I know.. What are you doing now? " - Khalis.



This thing gave me a headache. Bbys not online, so I ain't chatting with anyone for now.
Nothing much to do right now. Ugh, I'm so bored. Okay, a shower would be awesome but I'm so lazy. Okay, soon I promise. Seeya.

Bbys, recognize my entry title? hahahahah.
Hilarious moments with my loves on MSN till Alyssha can't get her ass off the bed to the toilet. Fiah from being so fierce to laughing non-stop alone at home. Was I the one who started it?
I did, right? Cheyy.

Mathematics Paper 1 was alright. Was doable but confident in failing this too.
Miss Lee discourage me before the paper starts, telling me how badly I've done for Paper two.
Actually, she encourage me by telling me that. Okay, I bebual belit belit. Sorry.

Bus to Causeway Point with Alyssha Bby! And had breakfast with her. Long breakfast plus chit chats, bitching, gossips, sharing moments and etc. Spent an hour at Banquet before getting my bubble tea. Got her top up card and off to the library where I found an interesting book which Alyssha got so jealous of. Haha, ended up not reading it because she had to go. Walked down and went up again and waited for Naddy to appear.

Went back to the place I seated, but that corner was taken. No choice but to sit somewhere so open. I like it there for some reason! HAHAH, those who know, shut up! Waited for a very long time. Naddy and Shaykh turned up and yeah, I had fun in the Library. They were hungry. Shaykh treated me to Mac Donalds. Thank you Baby Mentel. Was laughing alot with these two babies. Walked around and decided to call it a day at around 6.40pm. Indeed a long day for me. Walked home with both and yeah.

Okay. I'm feeling sick. But to me, that's just a choice. I'm not so sick to the extent that I feel that I'm dying. So yeah. Khalis is sick, so kesian. You know Singtel cut almost 6 bucks for calling you 23 times, although you tak angkat my calls? hahahaha. (: So please answer my calls. haha.

ART TOMORROW.
NOT A SINGLE PREP WORK DONE.
HIP HIP? HOOORAY.
HIP HIP? HOOORAYYY.
HIP HIIIIIIIIIP? HOOOOOOORAAAY!
-.-

SEEYA.

Seriously, you were part of my life. You used to make my life complete.
Now, you're just some carbage I passed by every now and then under my block.
You're so cheap that even the well known beggers in the world will nvr want to take you.

Cheap is the word to describe you.
I can just leave you alone but the fact that you're making my life miserable doesn't satify me.
I wanna get even. ALOT of us want to.

Just fuck off from OUR LIVES for real.
Seriously, go have more sexual intercourse and get aids and die.

manure
Platypus shit.
Disgusting.

How wonderful to stay in Australia right now.
They are not that worried about Swine Flu as they are pretty much isolated from the whole world, like Terry told me.

Yeah, Terry chatted with me and I'm quite shocked that he still remember me, IRAH. wow? And he still keep the lamest card I've written for someone, well I wrote for him in his drawer. Yes, that card deserves to be in a drawer! haha.

Anyway, I woke up from my nap receiving text messages from Khalis. Sorry boy, I was taking a rest. Headache's pretty bad! Woke up panicking because I will have to return the thermometer to a friend of mine tomorrow. Asked around but no one seem to have an extra. Thanked god my dear friend Danial Hakim is kind enough to give me some time till tomorrow, I think. Yeah, I'll get my own by tomorrow. Thanks.

So I'm able to relax a little bit for now. Yeah, relaxing.

Ulcers are back. I'm telling ya, it's huge. And my tongue still hurts thanks to my stupidity and hunger probably. I bit my own tongue and it's been awhile and have yet heal. Nothing much I can consume in this condition. Porridge would be great!

TODAY.
It's fun because it was raining in the morning. Same goes for yesterday. But today was embarrassing because I walked to school using a pink umbrella ( I like it though, it's pink! ) with two sunflowers printed on the left and right. ( that, I hated ) So, I closed the umbrella when I met Bbys. Actual plan was to meet Fiah Bby. Alyssha Bby was there too, double awesome.
So headed to school with the makciks.

Mother Tongue Paper 1 was doable. But Letter Writing was a complete bull crap. I talked about Fauzie Laily. I think Mdm Azah gonna talk to me about this. Die. Karangan was great because I have some ideas prepared and yeah, I managed to write. Hooray. Paper 2 was fine. The passage part again, pain in many of our asses. After the papers, bought drinks and went home straight. It's too warm out there. So I decided to stay in. Headache was a killer so yeah, didn't have plans for today. Prolly for the nest few days too. ( Here, you can here Alyssha saying " alaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah " ) teehees.

Social Studies tomorrow.
A subject I've never pass. Not even a just pass. Single digits, really.
That's the reason while I've been failing combined Humanities.
I think Geography was pretty hard. So yeah, I'm prepared for a U grade for Humans.
Yeah, revising real soon. I'll fill up my tummy first alright.

I've not done anything for art. So yeah, I'm prepared to flunk this too.

Miss Lee : Where's your temperature?
iRAH: *laughing at the back of the class *
` She meant where's my thermometer.
I know I know, I get too excited over littlest things. Hey, it's fun alright.

Tag replies.

Hard work and determination.
SYF 2009- Silver.

I still can recall how badly I cried.
How badly others cried and how the alumni hold back their tears too to comfort those who were at their lowest point. I still can see the judges sitting right in front of me when it's time for the results. I felt like pulling their hair and asked them ' why silver, WHY?! ' Well, if I want woodgrove to get bronze after getting silver, I should have done that. -.-

I miss intensive practices, honestly. I miss getting punished by the majors and later on argued with one on the way home. I miss foot drills ( I can't believe I'm said that ), I miss falling in. I miss warming up. I miss getting so stress for not getting the rhythm right. I miss getting scolded by my section mates. I miss nagging at my section mates. I miss sharing drinks with my partners. I miss sectionals. I miss combines. I miss when I get to suck reeds. I miss fixing my clarinet. I miss my clarinet. I miss getting angry with my clarinet for giving the peh peh peh sound. Actually it's my fault la.

I miss band. I really do.
That's why I'm listening to our syf recording right now. I'm recalling what I was thinking at every movement of Jocuri. First Movement was to just focus on getting the flow. The melody is nice so go for it! Rahmad solo came and it's good. Towards the end I was stressing about my solo. Came my solo at the Second Movement. I made it through without squeaking. Then I asked myself, ' omg, my solo's over?! '
Then it was the Third Movement. Harith's big solo. He did awesome. There, I was already exhausted. My lips and throat were already so dried up. I remember stopping for a moment to get back to my embouchure. I wanted to 'give up' but I told myself there's no more chance after this. So yeah. Came fourth Movement. Luthfi's solo. He did great. Some mishaps after that. But it was cool. Bao Yan did great too!I find her solo the best one. Then, we were all ready for the fast movements. Movement Five, we were all driving towards the end. Tempo was hard but we pulled through. Movement Six, it's getting closer. It's finishing. The last note of our band life is coming. BOM, the beat ended and that's the end of the WHOLE SYF.

That's the end for me to sit in between Dewi, who is still in band and dear Caroline who will be leaving woodgrove this year. I miss them. I miss my whole section. I miss looking at them practising hard. I miss those times.

Well before that, Overture was all about settling down and play with a smile. Move! yeah.
I miss band.

I miss playing music. Serious.
I miss my cca, alot.

The song's playing for the third time and I feel like tearing up.
Honest. I miss band. I miss WOODGROVE SECONDARY SCHOOL SYMPHONIC BAND.
Don't you?

I miss the exchange with hosted. I miss those exchange we had those band clinics with Mr surapol? Yeah. I miss band camp. I miss waking up early and ignoring Dewi cause I find it crazy to wake up early and hit the cold water. But I did. I miss PT. I miss getting so fed up in band.

I miss the time we spent after syf in the BAND ROOM.
The food, the talks, the leisure time we had after that. Omg, I miss my family.
Teachers, I want to go for band :'(

Rushing.

Yesterday was hella fun. Woke up at 7am by Alyssha bby's text message which really really did woke me up. Planned things with her and met her around 8.30am at Interchange. Bought breakfast and we headed to the Stadium for our morning jog.

It was weird that we had to write down our particulars before entering the stadium for Swine Flu purposes. So we just jot down whatever we had to and proceed in. Did our lame warm ups. I wanted to but fail to do alot cause I hate stretching. Did rounds and enjoyed the rest of our time there. We lay down on the steps, laughed out loud and yeah, we had fun.

Some nonsense guys took our numbers from the swine flu list and we think that's the lamest way to get our numbers. Kental is the word people. hahah. The guy called my number and hang up. Then texted Alyssha. HAH. It was hilarious that they acted like they're good friends already. Seriously guys, what the fish?

Okay, left the stadium at around 11 and headed to Alyssha's place to wash up. Left around 1.30pm and met Fiah Bby at Interchange. Finally (: Then we had lunch cause I was feeling very very nausea already. Lunched for 1 hour and then proceed to the library. Did Maths and it's obvious that we will flunk tomorrow's paper. eh bbys eh? haha.

Back home and watched tv. Wasn't feeling good and situation at home didn't make things better. I did something stupid and no, I ain't saying. Heh. Sorry uhs Alyssha.

Today.

It's worst.
Uztad realised that I was different today.
Sorry for not talking to you at all just now.

All I can do is tear up and nothing else.
Khalis has been a great support all this while.
Bbys too. Sorry Alyssha if I've bothered you too much about it.
Sayang you all many many many taus! (:

Goodluck people for your papers.
I know it's too early for Maths Paper 2.
School's weird, even Miss Lee was shocked.

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Someone met Fauzie Laily.
Aku jealous, many maany alot.

Distance means so little, when someone means so much.
- a quote given by Alyssha baby.

Was rather shocked when she texted me that because that point of time I was thinking about the distance and was feeling pretty unsure about this whole thing. Alyssha didn't and still can't understand why, neither do I. Hmm?

Yeah, I have got to open a private blog. There are so many things that I need to say. I don't wish to let the whole world know about it. I feel so unsecured and superbly unsure about this all of a sudden. I don't wish to be feeling this way. Why oh why.

The other night I baked cookies and bbys said it's nice! HAH, I know. chey. I don't know why but I felt the urge to bake that night not realising it's 30th the next day. I happen to tell Arif about the cookies and I really do hope he don't get the wrong idea. heh. Amacam khalis? I can bake kan? MUAHAHA.

Okay so I met Khalis the other day. Like finally eh? haha.

Nothing much for me to say already. Life isn't great right now.
Khalis busy learning to drive right now so I shall take my shower before he comes back.
Goodbye.